KnightHawk~FallenStar

2011-09-08T20:43:00.000+08:00

Kinda struggling these days. Final exams did not go well, but i hope i can at least pass all my modules, and take FYp & clear all my modules next sem. Am planning to take private As, its going to be tough, but i am not going to give up. Its not whether i can do it or not, its I must do it. :)

Shall drop by JE or Woodlands library tomorrow before work, and pick up the Econs textbook as well as "A random walk down wall street". Time to accumulate not just money, as well as knowledge, for brains are gold. ^^

2011-03-21T10:40:00.000+08:00

Long time since i last posted! Been very busy with school, then went on a trip to China since the start of my holidays! Got back last wednesday actually. :P

Am going to finish uploading the remainder of the 1345 pictures over the 8 days, before i post all of them here tonight. Stay tuned~

2010-12-29T09:23:00.003+08:00

I hope she's happy... The only reason i agreed was to relieve her of the burden... I just want to see her smile again...

2010-12-19T10:34:00.000+08:00

What went wrong? You're causing me hurt, shreding me apart. What did i do wrong? I wish you would say something...

2010-12-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

Didn't have much time to spend with her these days. But i will catch up with school after this week and spend more time with her! Miss the days where i can meet her almost everyday. :/

2010-12-11T00:58:00.001+08:00

2 more days before Common Tests. Gambatte!

2010-10-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

As we look back, there will always be things we have done and regretted, and wished that we never took that path. But how many of us, or I myself, have actually learnt from the mistakes? All has come to naught, till the turning point in life. Tick-tock. The time draws near.

In thine darkest hour, fear not. Rise & rise again, till lambs become lions.

2010-09-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

These were previously unposted drafts. ><

Jason ♥ Esther

2010-09-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

I wish i did better. I wanted to say out my feelings, but out only came a portion. Must muster all my guts... I will ask you again, and this time, i hope you have an answer... :)

2010-09-23T23:37:00.001+08:00

I wonder... How she thinks?

2010-09-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

Met with Esther for Dinner at 7pm last sunday, at Chang Korean Restaurant at Iluma. Got to know her better through dinner while chatting. Went for tau huay at rocher(i think?) & sent her home after that. :)

Met her at Vivovity at 1pm for movie. Walked with her from bus stop, was kinda awkward, but i guess thats the norm. Watched Eclipse, the movie wasn't too bad, can't help dropping afew glances at her during the movie. haha. Then went with her to funan to collect her pay and went to marina for dinner @ jusacia. She had tomyam soup, while i ate dory. Her reaction at the artillery rounds from the ndp rehearsal was just so epic! XD and we walk to esplanade to take a bus to bugis, and realised that there was a road block today, and walked to bugis amidst the ndp rehearsal. She kinda scared of the artillery rounds, tanks and big vehicles though, but we sat down for awhile to watch the demonstration go by. Afterburners by the jets was awesome! :D She accompanied me to sls to collect my pay cheque, and we parted ways at Fortune Centre, where she went to meet her sister for supper.

She's kinda cute, funny at times, and a friendly person. She just makes me smile. :) Things to take note of: She like blue, Dislikes fried food, seldom eats ice cream, family orientated person.

2010-09-15T11:56:00.002+08:00

This is bad... MY source of income has halted. Need to find a solution soon... THink, Jason Think!

2010-08-31T15:23:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i last went back to school. Though many teachers have left, but i will still remember what all of you have done for me. Awesome day. Should go back more often. I think i'm joining the alumni. :D

2010-08-31T00:23:00.000+08:00

You should know it by now. But i'm gonna say it to you anyway, regardless of your reply, i won't regret it. :)

You know i was going to get cheries for you when you said you wanted to eat, and told me not to. But somehow i wished you would let me. What a fool i am. :)

2010-08-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

To love someone is to care for her, and to make her smile. Thats what i firmly believe in.

2010-08-03T12:17:00.000+08:00

Won't be blogging in awhile, most time spent on studying le... trying to pull up my gpa. i know i can do it if i want to. Gogogo, be back in a week or so. :o

2010-07-21T22:55:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Lsct training. Took quite a amount of photos for them.. Hope the freshies had fun. :D But currently very tired sia. Tml sure die! Got maths, then CEL lab, then korean class in the evening! I need a breakkkk and a kit kat won't hurt too. :D

Thinking of you...

2010-07-19T14:14:00.000+08:00

Mum quit her job that day.Hopefully she can find a better job. Meanwhile she asks me to curb on my spendings, though it doesn't make sense since i never asked her for money other than my pocket money and bus concession. But it seems that i'm already 19, so i should more or less start to contribute to the family already. Maybe getting a better gpa would land me a bursary or something. And if i would stop lazing around, i would have more time to even work. Goodbye tripod, seems like i would be getting anything anytime soon other than my phone. Mum should be able to get a job pretty soon, its just a matter of when she can leave her current company now. I would better get cracking too!

2010-07-18T23:12:00.001+08:00

Ahhhhhhh~

Despicable me~ A movie filled with laughter. I like the lightstick part, where they are escaping through the vent, and its too dark, so a minion hugs and *crack* his buddy to shake him up to emit a glow! LOL. Dinner was at xinwang hk, had unagi ramen hk style. Should have eaten the curry instead, but nvm, i had my fill. :)

Thanks Auntie for paying for me, but i'm really paiseh about it... Next time I'll foot the bill. :D

2010-07-18T17:00:00.000+08:00

Gonna die of fluffiness later cause i'm watching despicable me! :D

First time going out with Wilson, Sandy & Franancia. Its a family outing! :P

2010-07-17T15:23:00.000+08:00

Watched Inception yesterday with 13 other guys. Damn epic movie! Great cgi, effects and plot. But i needed a movie to relax after a long day at school, but the movie just kept me thinking and anticipating throughout! After the movie, kinda in the trance liao. HAHAHA. I think i'm gonna dl and rewatch it again. Dinner was at Burger King, Double Whopper JR + upsize + free strawberry sundae. Got home quite late, but yea it was great~
Kinda sad for vab though... He didn't confirm when we booked the tickets, and the seat we left empty in between us in case someone decided to go, it was taken! Then vab had no choice but to seat somewhere in the front... :/

Manfrotto 190XProB + 488RC2 Ballhead will set me back at around $3xx... thats expensive man... very ouch for my wallet! Must think this over carefully already. The value of money is getting smaller. A meal costs alot more than it used to be! D:

2010-07-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

A quote from L from L Change the World...

"No matter how gifted you are, you alone cannot change the world."

So thats how the way life goes huh...

2010-07-03T01:03:00.002+08:00

Oranje to Semi-Finals. Expect them for finals, and if its a Germany face-off, then Oranje will take the trophy home. :D

2010-06-24T02:10:00.001+08:00

The time has come.

2010-06-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

Whats said cannot me be take back, whats done cannot be undone. I'm gonna move forth and make the best out of my current situation. No matter how difficult the path may be, i will do it, i must do it. Life is never easy, but once i get out of this mess, things will change for the better. I will run forth, as far as my legs will carry my, i will crawl to my destination if i have to. I won't stop here. Its just the beginning.

2010-05-29T01:54:00.002+08:00

ahhh damn... i dunno how i injured myself... woke up with immense pain on my back... maybe i should really see a doc... sucks eh...

2010-05-21T22:41:00.002+08:00

I guess this is my life. Boring.

2010-05-20T18:42:00.001+08:00

Looked down upon, trampled upon & stabbed in the back. I'm tired, i really am...

2010-05-17T00:48:00.001+08:00

不知如何是好。。。

2010-05-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

Gonna dye my hair shortly~ wonder how it will turn out to be. Ahahaa. Went popular just now! The Legend of Sigurd and Gudrun by J.R.R Tolkien! OMG! I nvr bring my popular card just now, cannot collect the 20% voucher, else i go buy le. Now thinking go get the hardcover version from amazon. Haven't been reading in quite awhile! And maths test tomorrow. I can't screw up! No way!

2010-05-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

There's so many things i wanna say, but i dunno how to put it across.

2010-05-10T21:54:00.001+08:00

Its at your darkest hour of need, would you know who would stay by you...and who wouldn't...

2010-05-10T11:16:00.002+08:00

Lone ranger huh... looks like i'm really becoming one...

2010-05-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

Mother's Day today! Dinner at grandma's place, we brought pizza and kfc, then my aunt's family brought fish soup, hokkien prawn mee, satay, poh pia! What a spread sia! Haven't had such a meal in a long time. Shiok ah~ And basically thats the only major thing i have done today, other than completing my assignments. LOL.

Feeling damn sian now. I'm very tired of everything. I wanna forget everything and start from ground zero...

2010-05-08T21:06:00.001+08:00

Headache... acute pain in the neck... Hope its ok tml... :/

2010-05-08T20:07:00.001+08:00

Gosh... been resting for the whole day. Recharging! Will finish up my maths tutorial tomorrow and catch up on my tpff and bpp powerpoint slides! Got my new shoes today. Quite comfy, good for running. And i have a craving for sushi buffet these days. Who wanna go with me? :D

2010-05-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

Parents. They just don't understand, do they? Instead of helping me, they help me add to the pile of overwhelming tasks. Thanks ah. And not to mention all the constant nagging and scolding. Over what? They say i have too much time. I should go learn driving and clean up my room since i have alot of time to spare. :/

2010-05-06T17:14:00.001+08:00

Extremely bad mood. Pissed off to be exact. Stay clear of me.

2010-05-03T21:39:00.001+08:00

I dunno what to do. Time to get busy. I want to forget everything. But i can't.

2010-05-03T02:26:00.000+08:00

Its taking a toll on me. Hang in there, Jason. Can go find a place to sleep after class ends at 12pm! Sore throat very sian. Means tml i have alot things that i can't eat... And my ps3 is back... gonna finish up my schoolwork then complete that ff13! Its been so long since i bought it! And i need to save up for new earphones... :(

Am i really that epic fail?

2010-05-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

Jialat liao... Woke up with sore throat, cough, flu... abit feverish... Hope its just minor and can recover real soon... :/

2010-04-28T00:59:00.001+08:00

I'm keeping myself busy! Kinda no life, but i need keep my studies in check too. :)

Blue <3 Purple

2010-04-26T01:26:00.002+08:00

Waited until she was online, chatted abit and its time for me to sleep. 8am class, flash applications. Which i could take exploring photography first, but oh well. :/

2010-04-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

A week that seemed like a month. Forgot to mention that we got 3rd place for Dance4Fun! :) Okays i think i really have to sleep, and i got lots of things to catch up with. My friends, i will meet you guys soon! :D

My friend, tell me what i should do. I know what you are thinking, but i'm feigning ignorance cause i don't know what to do.

2010-04-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

Dance4Fun is officially over. And i need some sleep before i post anything else. Be back soon...

2010-04-21T22:49:00.001+08:00

And not to mention i'm eating very little and feel like vomitting... wtf is wrong with me...

2010-04-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

The neck injury that has plagued me for very long is back again after 2 months. Sucks... plus my swollen feet. Gotta hang on for 1 more day, until the performance ends. Gambatte everyone...

2010-04-21T01:32:00.000+08:00

I felt so... pathetic today. Jitao is stand and watch... Just hope she's fine... thats all i ask for. :)

2010-04-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

Everyday just gets better. :D

Can't wait for the next morning to come quickly. Woots. Didn't know scoold can be so fun. Lol! Today spam alot pics at the Chem E Car competition for the freshies. Almost kena bang by the "cars". >_<

Ok sleep first. Alot to post about, but i'm really sleepy! Rest well, everyone. :D

2010-04-19T07:01:00.000+08:00

School starts today! First up is Flash APplications. I have no idea why i cannot install my Flash CS4 prior to class, when the link was provided. Shall ask the lecturer later on why the link doesn't load when he said it would load from home. Then next up would be Chem-E Car competition for the CBE freshies! See what help THK & other lecturers would need. Then i think i would go back home to rest after that. Feeling very unwell today. -__-

Its a long day, but I will hold on! Then it would be Dinner with Calypso<3 freshies at 6pm, Alumni Cafe. :D After which I would have to do for the dance 4 fun practice. :D Chiong ah~

2010-04-17T02:05:00.000+08:00

Jason is happy. :D

And this blog is so dead. I shall stay happy and fill this blog with happy posts. Woots. :P

2010-03-17T22:34:00.001+08:00

I won't say maybe... But i will say... I have gone crazy... I lost it just now... Never before in the 18, almost 19, years of my life. Sorry Mum, Sorry Kim, I have failed as a Son and as a brother. Sorry for letting the both of you see that side of me. Sorry for everything. I have done nothing right in my life.

Mum, i failed you, wasting my life away, giving up on myself. Much as i wanted to move on, but i couldn't. Sorry for talking back to you, sorry for making you upset, sorry for being rebellious. Kim, i owe you the most. Sorry for failing to lead as an example. I hold myself to blame for what happened. If only had i worked harder and lead you, and helped you, you would have been in a good school now. Sorry my friends, you all are the best people i have known. All the fun & laughter, i won't forget it even til the day i move on. Even if the world collapses, i know that Mum, Kim, & my friends, you all would back me up. But i don't wanna be a burden to you all. I gotta face this myself. And as life dictates... i shall roam wherever my feet takes me, until it can no longer do so.

Lsct society... initially had wanted to clear everything and go for trainings, then go for foc, have fun with my friends... but its all talk now. I'm leaving... there's no point when i can't enjoy it. Not in this state. I can't smile, i can't laugh. All these, have been ripped away from me. I'm just a shell, void of emotions...

Goodbye everyone, i hope that our paths shall never cross again. Let all these be a memories of days long past...

2010-03-04T17:31:00.000+08:00

Its a lost cause. Whats done cannot be undone. They may seem the same. But everything's different.

2010-03-03T15:15:00.000+08:00

http://zanza-snsd.livejournal.com/4180.html

My spares. Pics i got time then i post. Use the link for reference. :)

2010-02-11T19:19:00.002+08:00

Cmon. Bring me all you have got. Bring the flames, the hell, whatever. I can take more than this.

2010-02-11T17:27:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna go beserk soon. Even the smallest of details irks and pisses me off. Overwhelmed. The anger & frustration is accumulating.

2010-02-05T21:23:00.000+08:00

Ya know, if they wanna continue cursing and swearing at me everyday, i can do the same back to them too. Keeping quiet is just respecting them, not that i am afraid of them. Sometimes i wonder if i have been to nice with people already. I just wanna live my life the way i want it. Nobody's gotta stop me. Its my life, i don't care what everyone else says. If anyone tries to jeopardize me, i will personally deal with them. I know there's alot of posts with angry comments. But who cares. I'm unhappy everyday anyway. Damn.

2010-01-30T17:15:00.000+08:00

I shall do as i please. None shall obstruct or be a hindrance to me. I won't show mercy if you are trying everything to drag me down. The very reason why i am at the bottom today is all because of you. I won't take it anymore. Fuck off and leave me alone.

2010-01-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

Looks like an eagle, isn't it?

One of the happiest days in my life. Definitely will remember it for as long as i live. >_<

Woke up at around 9.4X, then was gonna go to Canon Service Centre take a look at the cameras. Then got a Phone call shortly, Eric & Patrick got time go down sls with me, so me met them there at 12pm to get my camera. initially was gonna get the 500D, but find it too lightweight, and its only an entry level. End up getting Nikon D90 with VR 18-105mm Lense. Good enough for close up and slightly long shots. Yay~ Finally got it~ And i decided not to take any money from parents and pay for it myself. >_<

Then missed the 2pm show at cineleisure for Avatar 3D, cause i took a long time to consider and get the camera. HAHAHA. Then got home, play abit with the D90, then went with sis to eat dinner then catch Avatar 3D at GV JP. Cool sia the movie. $10 was definitely worth it. Liked it loads. Ahaha.

After the movie, sis said she wanted to get levis jeans, but say she no money. Since i owe her a sakae meal, so i bought a pair for her and another pair for myself. Though the pair of jeans is 2 sakae meals, but for her bdae, nvm lah. :P

Fun day~ Think i gonna bring my D90 to school and try taking some shots. Need to practise, FT Island and Shinee coming to sg, i wanna take some nice pics! :D

2010-01-16T23:45:00.001+08:00

Day in day out, the gastric pain kept attacking. The hell...

2010-01-11T20:47:00.002+08:00

FML... seriously... life sucks man. :/

2010-01-07T12:24:00.000+08:00

Gastric acted up today. After-effects of skipping meals... Been skipping breakfast and lunch since the start of the holidays. Yesterday was the first time i had lunch in weeks. damn...

2010-01-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

Finally settle everything liao. Phew. And Aiin just sms-ed me that i kena Log for FOC Comm. Sian sia. -_-

Don't mind Log, but hope i don't have to do... Cause My sprees/mass orders already require me to do quite an amount logistics already, from colelctin orders, to stock take, to ordering, to separate shipment, check shipment delivery schedules. Lolol. I wanna try something else. =X

2010-01-05T20:29:00.001+08:00

Screwed up screwed up. Can't believe i made such a mistake. Damn...

2009-12-24T02:56:00.001+08:00

Man, my life's so screwed at the moemnt. I jsut need to get it back on track. But the question is, how? :/

2009-12-23T12:06:00.001+08:00

KInda sick today... Need rest for the day... Hope i get well before the party tonight... Haven't seen them in a long time. :D

2009-12-23T02:56:00.001+08:00

It shall be a long day.

2009-12-20T01:26:00.004+08:00

Exams over. Now i need a break. Mousehunt isn't axactly the break i want. LOL. And i want my mp3 back! Life is so plain without it. I need music to colour my life. :( Transition from jpop to kpop, but still pretty much into jpop also. :D I wanna learn both languages next sem! But oh wait, this sem isn't over yet, am i thinking too far? Ahahah. And there's my guitar lying in the corner of my room unused. I need to get things done one by one, not say about it anot not doing it. :P

Trial camp... should i go? Foc, should i go? Hmm...

Christmas is coming, but totally not in the festive mood. Weird. But i never celebrated it anyway. the 16th and 17th year of my life has been awesome, though there were some setbacks, but enjoyed it as always. The 18th year has been somewhat different, there's been more frustration than Happiness though. May this few months compensate for the last half. Need to slacken my finances though. Not that i lack money, but i don't dare spend much when i am jobless. I wanna get a job during march/april holidays. The previous holiday i didn't work, it was pretty much screwed up, and after all the shyt, i didn't have time to work and my wallet has been significantly thinner than it used to be. Sucks eh.

Chilllllz. Gotta finish reading the books i bought last time. The Appeal By John Grisham, The Silmarillion By J.R.R Tolkien. Great books, but i didn't have time to finish them. Now i do, so its time to savour every word. XD

Morning jog tomorrow! Gotta train myself le, since everytime during pt feel so cui... But dunno why... running or doing pt myself was easy... lsct pt somehow i just can't catch their rhythm, it just drains me. :/

I wantttttt my life back, and soon. Seriously~ :P

2009-12-14T15:08:00.000+08:00

Feeling lethargi and abit sick... right before my 1st paper tomorrow... damn...

2009-12-03T22:04:00.003+08:00

I will no longer live for anyone, but myself. I shall be my own judgement. I'm going all out, shedding all my burdens. I am unsure if i can really do it, but i will try until the day i can truly roam free again. Peace out. :)

2009-11-27T13:10:00.000+08:00

Exploding. Consumed by anger. I'm sick of everything.

2009-11-20T22:43:00.001+08:00

gosh. just when i thought i am recovering, but i'm falling sick again. noooooooooooooooooooooooo

2009-11-17T20:55:00.000+08:00

Feeling very sick today... dodn't go to school... and my mum went ranting about my results and me changing course... I know, i am a disgrace to you, you do't have to keep reminding me of it... Wish i could continue on.... but can i?

2009-11-16T23:54:00.004+08:00

Sleepy now, so this will be a short post~

Went out with Miya after school to get my fog bar from him, and i went to buy some other stuff as well. :D

List of things i got today:

Shiseido UNO Fog Bar
Gatsby Long-Keep Hair Spray
Loreal Paris Studio DirtyClean Testurising Clay

As said by Miya, this is all that i should need bah. Heh.

And viola! I repaired my own mp3 player, when i realised it was the audio jack that caused the problem, and very likely to be a solder failure. Two options, apply pressure to hold the jack in place, or re-solder it. Since i don't want to void the warranty by soldering it myself, i just overlapped some tape over it to keep the jack in place, and that solves the problem. Now i don't have to go to AMK to get it fixed. :D

2009-11-15T22:11:00.004+08:00

This feeling... my heart is dying. Emptiness. Loneliness. Nothing. 18 years of my life. I have achieved, nothing. Whatever good i have done, it was not recognized. Whatever bad i have done, it was all scrutinized. As i look back upon my life, everything seemed so well back then, and when i look forward, i see nothing. When i look at myself now, its all a mess. Yes, i hate myself, i hate the world. Why did i become this way? Cause i gave up on myself. Whatever i do now, i don't give my best, or rather i don't care.

They ask me why i have become what i am today. I ask in my heart, how much do you all know of me? I used to try to do whatever their expectations may be, but they were never satisfied. If i did right, it was taken for granted. When i did wrong, it turned the world upside down. I was forever living in others' shadows. I shall do what i like, without care of any consequence. For what can be worse than death? I won't seek death, but if it comes to me, i shall accept it. Call me a coward, but i don't care.

You can't lose what you never had.

2009-11-13T16:39:00.002+08:00

I did what my instincts told me. I took the step, i said what i should say, and i apologized. But then still doesn't change the fact that i might leave society, unless i feel that i'm part of it again. Too much strife, i don't like it at all. Tiring.

Went to see the doc after lunch, and was told that its a common flu. Luckily... but then ODA is tomorrow. Hope i recover in time. Stamina is greatly weakened. Got drenched in the rain while going home. :/

2009-11-12T13:42:00.006+08:00

Down with sore throat and flu. In class now, but i can't concentrate. Feeling damn awful. Just need to tahan abit more until 3pm, then i can go back and rest...

In search of my soul.
I just want to be... me...

2009-11-11T21:58:00.003+08:00

S&S had ended yesterday. Facebook homepage jammed with pictures, videos and comments. Ppl look upon the days as a memory and some even said they missed it. Well for me, i was glad its over. Now i'm back to normal life. But a question lingers. Should i stay or should i leave society? Somehow i don't feel like i'm inside the society anymore. Oh whatever.

Passed my BTT today. Can apply for PDL and FTT le. Shall take my time. i just need time to get back on my track before i start planning and doing my own things. Life' sucks, as always. Period.

CBE is fun, but i still miss the ECE days. THough i hated the modules back then, but i always went to school cause i enjoyed the company of my class. Now wherever i go, class or cca, i feel out of place. What happened? I know not.

Lets leave the questions for tomorrow. I'm tired. Almost collapsed while going back home just now. :/

2009-10-31T16:33:00.003+08:00

Haven't blog for some time. Didn't go for s&s practice yesterday, cause i think that its pointless when we are sitting and waiting for people most of the time. Then i went out with parents, which was planned long ago and cancelled as there was practice, but i went out anyway. Had a great dinner and went to ikea. My sister said the Swedish Hotdog Bun was nice, and we went to buy it, but doesn't taste anything special to me. Aahaha. Watched final fantasy advent children complete, and transformers 2: revenge of the fallen in the night. ^_^

Cause i slept late, my mum had to drag me awake to go to the bank with her, and after that i accompanied her to get massage therapy at chinatown, at the chien chi tow main branch. Her neck and shoulder has been giving her lots of problems recently. Wish i got more time to be with my family. But things have to be done, though i will try to get more time. :)

2009-10-22T00:52:00.001+08:00

today was quite a fun day, but one set back was that i fell down and injured my head and hip. not feeling good now, abit giddy and vision slightly blurry on right eye... lost my cool down now and shouted in pain, cause i fell down hard on the floor with my head, went blur for awhile, before i found the strength to get back to my feet... I gotta blame myself for that, cause i wasn't alert. :/

2009-10-07T22:39:00.001+08:00

Been feeling crappy today. Sagas from my workplace, and sagas from my family. Pure irritation.

2009-10-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

Well, over the past few days been considering whether to go apply for the Barista postion at starbucks. But today, i decided not to. BY working, i will have lesser time and tire myself more. Maybe i should take life easier? Now i think i should focus on my studies and get my driving license. Anyways a friend told me that she can tell that my family misses me, since i haven't been seeing much of them recently.THough i can somehow sense it too, by my mum waking me up almost every morning and chatting with me while i am half-awake. >_<

2009-10-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

Just when i thought my injuries are healing, but its just turned for the worst. Spine still hurting as usual. Oh well. Went to dye my hair yesterday. Guess i look very different now. Dunno if its a good or bad thing. Training tomorrow morning. Going all out!

2009-10-05T09:24:00.002+08:00

Been working quite alot these days. Yesterday went to work at Wild Wild Wet for some family day event, me and Prashanth are supposed to be helping out at the games station. Its kinda tiring, since there was no break, but its quite fun also. Working again tonight at PSB Academy. I think i am going to Starbucks later for a job interview for part-time barista. Pay should be lower than other jobs that i am having now, but i reckon that i would enjoy the job better. :)

Finally my injuries are healing. Hope to join in training and games soon~ :D

2009-10-02T02:15:00.000+08:00

Damn the injuries, i'm gonna ignore it. I'm going all out. Chiong!!!!

2009-10-01T14:52:00.002+08:00

On 154 now, going for the 1st showcase for s & s. Hope i don't screw up anything today. My to-do list is ever increasing, and i need to hasten my pace, else i will never get anything done at this rate.

I need to train myself. I don't want to fall out again, can't stand the pathetic feeling, and watching my friends do extra pumping cause of that. Maybe i am thinking too much, but thats just me. Precisely they are friends i hold dear, therefore i want to do more for them instead of them for me.

Kinda in a bad mood today, maybe i am thinking too much. Hope it turns for the better. Everything will be ok! :)

2009-09-30T21:32:00.002+08:00

Weakling. Plagues by injuries. But i'm used to it though, reckon it will subside over time. Then again, i get injuries quite often. LOL. I think i need some rest though, but i doubt i will get it anyway. Maybe i should take life abit easier, like i used to, but not to easy on myself, else i would go back to my old ways of a slacker. XD

Heroes die young. Guess it makes sense huh.

2009-09-29T21:45:00.001+08:00

my backbone is giving me problems. i guess age is catching up on me? Haven't felt pain for a long time, not even stitches. But this injury almost brought me to my knees. Lol. Hope it gets better, though it got worst today. Training tomorrow and working at psb academy after that. Thursday is first s&s showcase. Gambatte!

Dinner was great today, had beef sukiyaki. Quite nice, though i miss eating ramen. I need money, and soon! :)

2009-09-27T03:47:00.001+08:00

Its been awhile since i last posted.

For the past few weeks, its been busy for me. And throughout everything, i learned a new approach to live and to communicate with others better, as well as thinking deeper. It made me realise how naive i was, and i am going to reflect upon myself and try to change myself. Life is never easy, but taking a step back gives me a wider view and it makes it somehow easier.

Okay that was a whole load of gibberish to myself. Nitex.

2009-09-03T22:22:00.001+08:00

I fell out with him. The worst one ever. But it will not be the worst. This will no longer be a place i call home. Be it the streets, but i can stay here no longer.

2009-09-03T11:12:00.000+08:00

Damn damn damn... I gotta change myself... in terms of my sleeping hours at least... I gotta wake up for my activities on time...

2009-09-03T00:19:00.002+08:00

Okay, to blog about monday night. Was playing maple when i got a call from aiin asking whether i am going to send wenliang off at the airport. Its already 11.30pm at that point, so i sort of decided to go and meet them at mrt station. Since my dad was awake i got him to send me to mrt station, cause i dunno if there's still any bus service or i dun wanna wait. Then halfway to clementi mrt, aiin and qinyi boarded the train they thought to be the ast and left without me. And my dad had a crazy idea to chase after the train, virtually racing against it. But we never made up, but go alongside the train as i wait their train leave the station at redhill. And my dad didn't bring his phone, so i got off at tiong bahru and asked him to leave if i didn't come up in 5 minutes. And when i got down, i was told that the last train comes in 6 minutes, and i called aiin and qinyi to get off and wait for me at raffles place mrt 1st cabin to board my train. Damn epic lah, guess my dad wasn't in his right mind. The next day he even asked me, fun anot? Wahahahaha.

So in the end we reached pasir ris, and cabbed down to changi airport, where we hung around their until around 6am then left. By right the plane was at 5pm, but somehow got delayed, so if we had known it was delayed sooner, they we could have caught the 1st train on tuesday. Anyways all the best to wenliang for his wuhan trip. :P

On monday night, i got my packages from dhl. got my new timbuk2 bag and oakley shades, as well as a timbuk2 bag for my sis too. :P

About yesterday night(since it 12.29am now), i went late for training and felt super bad about it cause i didn't check the training dates and didn't know there was one until aiin called me during their lunch break. Then i was in a dilemma to go or not to, cause i dun want sabo them to kena pumping. But went there in the end, but can't help feeling damn guilty lah... Then Leiting, Soshi and Sherman was talking to me before the others reached, trying to make me feel betetr...thanks for that. and qinyi too, trying to tell me its ok, and try to make me laugh. but i just can't smile... many thanks though... can't express enough gratitude to you all...

went for two separate deliveries to customers, then headed down to paya lebar to meet friends for dinner. had honeydew milk tea, ramly burger, fishball noodles etc. quite nice! thought i wanted to leave early cause i gotta wake up early tomorrow for s&s meeting and training. Will blog again when i have time.

tata~
Jason

2009-08-29T17:52:00.003+08:00

Exams have ended yesterday. Finally~ Hope the results aren't too bad. Guess i can just wait.. :D

Went to work this morning, and my fingertips are numb already. SHort blog today cause nth much happened. SHall blog again soon, since i have loads of time now. :P

2009-08-25T20:00:00.000+08:00

Haven;t posted anything is some time...

Been having exams, so far its been ok.... nth great happened though. had this sinking feeling just now... i know what it meant, but i didn't know what to do... off to sleep... bad day...

2009-08-03T19:55:00.001+08:00

Life just sucks today. Sh*t Happens. :/

2009-07-29T15:17:00.000+08:00

These were delivered today! My purchasese from American Eagle and the bags from the Timbuk2 Spree. Finally! :D

LSCT training later, i hope i do ok. Kinda tired today, flu isn;t better. :(

2009-07-29T01:51:00.003+08:00

Been sick for over a week... Definitely the weather that caused this. I am relatively immune to flu, unless there is a constant and drastic change in weather, then there will be a 99.99% rate that i will fall sick. This feeling really sucks, it just won't recover. :(

Went for the last eye checkup today. With regards to my eyes, the condition of the cornea is good, dryness and glares mostly subsided. Really happy with it now, no more wearing of spectacles! And uncle martin was on mc for 3 days, and i covered his duties for today. Quite bored, as there was nothing much for me to do. But this sunday would be better, at least i am given some tasks to do this sunday to make time pass quicker.

Quite tired today...guess i need to get some good rest since there is lsct training tomorrow. Hope i won't have anymore problems with the crunches(is that how it's spelt?), since i am kinda weak at that, but i am trying to overcome it though. The training makes me fitter, but i need to get some tan. All the tan in years past have faded, and i need to get it back!

2009-07-27T22:59:00.004+08:00

Haven't posted in quite some time... some update... life been slow moving, been sick with flu... ain't doing great in school, but my results are at least Bs... ICBE test today, i made calculation mistakes, by the time i realised how to finish the question, time was up... so i reckon i can't pass the test. :(

Lab test was great though, i should get at least 90 for it i think, since i doubt i made any or much errors during the lab test. Lab is fun, but i have always been bad at theories, so i guess i gotta work harder and spend more time studying. Last eye check up tomorrow, but my eyes are great now, the dryness is disappearing. :D

2009-07-04T02:43:00.002+08:00

End of the week! Down with fatigue! Gonna try another week before i decide to continue or not with tennis or adventure seekers. Think i am having too much training. Later going with Kenneth to queensway cause he needed to get a pair of shoes. I might get a pair though...

Shall blog more about it later. :)

2009-06-25T01:33:00.001+08:00

New TV is here today, tidied up my room a little! Hope to get a shelf or low table for my laptop. :D