I won't say maybe... But i will say... I have gone crazy... I lost it just now... Never before in the 18, almost 19, years of my life. Sorry Mum, Sorry Kim, I have failed as a Son and as a brother. Sorry for letting the both of you see that side of me. Sorry for everything. I have done nothing right in my life.

Mum, i failed you, wasting my life away, giving up on myself. Much as i wanted to move on, but i couldn't. Sorry for talking back to you, sorry for making you upset, sorry for being rebellious. Kim, i owe you the most. Sorry for failing to lead as an example. I hold myself to blame for what happened. If only had i worked harder and lead you, and helped you, you would have been in a good school now. Sorry my friends, you all are the best people i have known. All the fun & laughter, i won't forget it even til the day i move on. Even if the world collapses, i know that Mum, Kim, & my friends, you all would back me up. But i don't wanna be a burden to you all. I gotta face this myself. And as life dictates... i shall roam wherever my feet takes me, until it can no longer do so.

Lsct society... initially had wanted to clear everything and go for trainings, then go for foc, have fun with my friends... but its all talk now. I'm leaving... there's no point when i can't enjoy it. Not in this state. I can't smile, i can't laugh. All these, have been ripped away from me. I'm just a shell, void of emotions...

Goodbye everyone, i hope that our paths shall never cross again. Let all these be a memories of days long past...

Jason is here @ 10:34 PM