Family problems are such a headache.

Not wanting to say it but they really care more about my sister than me. Yea its no big deal but sometimes they really go overboard. Confronted my dad just now, and he did not say anything, which his answer became obvious.

Another thing is that my GradMother is coming over to stay tomorrow. My aunts and uncles are like playing table tennis or rather tai chi and pushing her around. Come on, everyone grows old. And i have to give up my bed to her, which i don't really mind but quarrels always start when she comes, either parents or parents with aunts and uncles. and i was always the tool for my parents to frustrate their anger on, since they don't dare do it to my sister.

I have kept quiet for years and now its really near the brink of exploding. Sometimes i do practise anger management and try to laugh it off but occasionally i go mad and quarrel with them.

But thats the reason why i look at things very differently. Since young people have looked down on my family mainly that my parents did not receive much education and some of them say things like stupid people give birth to stupid children. When things happen, i tend to think more in-depth, and look further. People might just treat me like a weirdo, and i realise most of my friends are much older than me, mostly in the working society.

As such, i don't go out much because i have few (but all of them are the best) friends of my age, and friends older tham me go to restaurants when we go out, which i simply don't have the spending ability to tag along.

I spend much of my time planning things for myself, and think(maybe too much), but at least thats helps to spend time away, better than sitting in front of the computer whole day long. At least i know, that now, i have nothing much to worry about, and just relax a little and let things move naturally.

Sorry for venting my frustrations here, but i guesss not much, or rather no one will be affected, since this blog is dying anyway, just one look at the tagbox tells me so, and i didn't even bother to put the visit counter, as it will only may myself feel worse. Lol.

School starts in afew days, and there's no work this dunday, so i at least can have some rest lest that i fall asleep during IS modules on Monday. XD

Jason is here @ 11:15 PM