Today was one of the bad days of my life. Things went really bad, unaccordingly to planned and out of hand. Tried to help but didn't work out well. Life has never been smooth sailing. Lost my 4GB Memory Stick while i was doing some work, and there was a black out in the shop. I dropped it, but i didn't know where and searched for it thoroughly but still, i couldn't find it. Learnt a lesson, when something bad happens, just cool down, step back, analyse the problem and find a solution to it. I paniced when problems occured, and i made a mess out of it. Luckily it was kept under control, but still damage was done. Apologies to those involved in the incident.

I'm just an average kid trying to survive in this harsh world. Yet i meet more and more blockades, even though i try to scale them, they never stop coming. People told me that i should step back and relax, but life's a pain already, since i'm already numb, i don;t really care. Maybe i should world till i collapsed. I really dunno and hate this. Looking back, i have never felt really happy once. I am scarred, and the pain keeps coming back to me. I couldn't forget, sometimes it would just come back to me in the middle of the night, all alone. My days are near, i know it myself. AT the present rate i'm going, I can't survive long enough.

To clear myself of emotions, and numb myself for tomorrow, and the days to come. Bye.

Jason is here @ 1:23 AM